We are looking forward....

Oh yeah, our tickets are booked and looking forward for our trip to Jakarta...Yihaaaaaa.......but the trip will be only in March 2011.

Lama ooo I did'nt travel cause I gave birth 2 years in a row kan...2008 and 2009...so was not convinient for me...mcn tu lah tu I feel kalo anak ada ramai skit...keeeekeee. However, I am only bringing Leah...Leevan and Lana will be at thier Kung2 and Lola's hse...theu will be 3 years and 2 years by that time...so, I won't susah hati so much or RASA BERSALAH this....heeeheee.

I am looking forward to see Indonesian cultures and also for the Shoppppppping....heeeeeeheeeee. I heard its like Haven o mau shop there...I know lama again but pejam kelip, pejam kelip...nah, march already 2011.

However, I am a bit worried if ngam2 that time...same timing kami move house....eyeeeeeeeeeeee, I hope not so....Hubby said, latest will be in March or else will be in May..mau tengok kewangan dong......heeeheee...I don't want to worry and bingung my kepala about the house....mesti tunggang tebalik that...........................................lama again, I don't want to think about it 1st lar..tau tu nanti..

signing off......

Self Confidances

Oh yeah....I am losing it.....LOl.

Before, I've always hope that how I can turn back the time...but NOW, I am GREATFUL for everything..the GOOD and the BAD. I learned a lot from it. Mistakes that made me a better person I am now and also the great memories that I collected along this journey.

What I mean is that...I don't feel CUTE anymore.....haaaahaaaa. I can't wear those cute pretty dresses not skinny jeans, tight cloths and so on.....the list can go on and on......My hair is in a mess and my face needs facial.....heeeeeheeee..

However, I should not complaint. I am not the only one. I will have that time if my interest have not changed tho by that time. Haaaahaaa..My piorities are my children now. I had my momont already....Heeehee (dulu2 bah bila blum kahwin and masi dating2.....) Thats why I got married early....Bunga telah dipetik they said. I am still young after all and I have 3 wonderful children...They are growing up so fast after all....By that time, we will be super close and share the same interest I hope with my girls....

So....I  am not losing my confidances after all...its just that I am busy with kids and chores at home...Lol..silly me...........after all, Hubby is providing the best to us...why complaint? keeekee.....mulau bah....I Thank Lord for the abundance gift and blessing from HIM.


I think I got my case to rest....need to cari masa saja bah this..not at this near moment tho.....me again now this ada mood baking and cooking. I am becoming a better housewife and mother to my own family...an improvement and kudos to me..after all, those can wait even tho still need to take care. Neglecting our children is a No NO No.....

Have a great day ya all.... :)

I Miss being pregnant..

Pregnant again.....!!! Nope, I am not...Lol. How is wish I am. Unfortunately, Dr. S don't advise to get pregnant again because of some complicated matters if I do get pregnant again. If I do get pregnant this near future, I have 2 choice..either to give up my life or my lil one...so, the best solution for me is to prevent...

Chances to have another..? Yes, I can but in maybe after 5 years time..which maybe too risky for me and the baby still...according to my gynea. still long way to go tho..

However, I like being pregnant. I think being pregnant, I can eat as much as I can and also feel my baby grow the whole 9 months. I feel that I am sooo damn beautiful also when I am pregnant..I think, I am always glowing...LOl (perasan time)

But, when I was pregnant, jealous pula me see people slim...can wear all those sexy maxi dresses and clothes..Yay...but, mau slim bukan senang oooooooo...a lot of discipline and work out...wanna look sexy after giving birth, u need to work for it....haaaaahaa (which I am lack of)

I remmeber when I was pregnant, I can eat all those yummy food without getting worried but now....mau makan pun susah hati...(budu kan) The beauty of being pregnant, sooo siok. its just that, it can be tiring and so..where else,when I am not pregnant, I can do many things......Well, I think there are advantages and disadvantages or being pregnant and not pregnant...

Now, I am enjoying my time with my little ones...being with them and see them grow...the beauty of being a SAHM...till my next post

Trying to generate and still trying

As I mention before, being a stay at home can be a GREAT experience. I know not everybody enjoy to be a stay at home mum or had the privilage. I am LUCKY and GREATFUL.

Anyhow, being a SAHM can be very flexible with time; not always but there are free time. I do not regrat that I don't have the privilage to work I do envy some cause they can generate their own income. Chasing dreams that I have long to achieve but I know there will be a time for that...

However, I come across with this website especially for Mothers. Mothers that are eager to learn and to generate income as well. I am still new and still learning but it opened my mind. I wish I could chase my dreams and yet small step at a time.

Below is the website that maybe anyone of you are interested

ehomakers.net

Happy Mothers Day to All Mums and Mum to be....xoxoxo

A blessing and prayer tribute to all mothers

"Blessed be all mothers

Who have come into our lives

Whose kindness, care and loving

Remain with us to guide.

Your inspiration in us

Made us strive in every way

Especially to remember

Helping others makes our day.

Mothers, this little tribute

Flows directly from my heart

You are so loved and cherished

Invaluable, one and all, you are.

Susan Kramer

A Mother's Love

There are times when only a Mother's love

Can understand our tears,

Can soothe our disappoints

And calm all of our fears.

There are times when only a Mother's love

Can share the joy we feel

When something we've dreamed about

Quite suddenly is real.

There are times when only a Mother's faith

Can help us on life's way

And inspire in us the confidence

We need from day to day.

For a Mother's heart and a Mother's faith

And a Mother's steadfast love

Were fashioned by the Angels

And sent from God above.

Author Unknown

You Were There...

You were there when we took our first steps,

And went unsteadily across the floor.

You pushed and prodded: encouraged and guided,

Until our steps took us out the door...

You worry now "Are they ok?"

Is there more you could have done?

As we walk the paths of our unknown

You wonder"Where have my children gone?"

Where we are is where you have led us,

With your special love you showed us a way,

To believe in ourselves and the decisions we make.

Taking on the challenge of life day-to-day.

And where we go you can be sure,

In spirit you shall never be alone.

For where you are is what matters most to us,

Because to us that will always be home...

Author Unknown

Hello May and Happy Birthday to my Lil Lana

Hello and good day everyone...

I can't believe that it's the month of May already..Time flies super duper fast ever since I had my kids. They are growing up so fast.

I remember as a student..long long time ago (tolivot time), time flies so slow..I just can't wait to grow up and be 18...haaahaaa. But now if you ask me, I miss my student life..so so much....

Anyway, this post is about Lana..Its her birthday tomorrow..wishing my daughter a 1 YEAR. We LOVE you so much baby...and you will grow to be a GRACEFUL girl...

Breakfast at McDonald

Breakfast at McDonald's

This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting facts!):

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.

The last class I had to take was Sociology.

The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.

Her last project of the term was called, 'Smile.'

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions..

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So, I thought this would be a piece of cake,

literally.

Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning.

It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.

We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then

even my husband did.

I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved..

As I turned around I smelled a horrible 'dirty body' smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was 'smiling'

His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance.....

He said, 'Good day' as he counted the few coins he had been clutching..

The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.

I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.

He said, 'Coffee is all Miss' because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.

That is when I noticed all eyes in the

restaurant were set on me, judging

my every action.

I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray..

I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand..

He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, 'Thank you.'

I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, 'I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope.'

I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son... When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, 'That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope..'

We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers.

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand.

I turned in 'my project' and the instructor read it.

Then she looked up at me and said, 'Can I share this?'

I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.

She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my son,the instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.

I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:

UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to

LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS -

NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.

There is an Angel sent to watch over you..

In order for her to work, you must pass this on to the people you want watched over.

An Angel wrote:

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart

To handle yourself, use your head..

To handle others, use your heart.

God gives every bird it's food, but He does not throw it into its nest.

A box of gold

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

With a secret inside

that has never been told

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

This box is priceless

but as I see

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

The treasure inside is

precious to me

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Today I share this

treasure with thee

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

It's the treasure of

friendship you've

given me.