Hi

Life have been good to me....especially being so blessed to be a stay at home mum. Thanks to my hubby.

If you have noticed, I started changing little by little in my blog. I want it to be my journal as a mother and wife to my wonderful family.

Oneday, I will turn those pages and see all the journey and stories that I've shared. Maybe...and maybe, my kids will stumble upon their mummy's journal...stories about them and so on...

Oh, my Christmas tree is up...Yihaa.....these xmas spirit makes me excited. It would be even great if my hubby can be with us. Miss you hubby so much...love u much...

Take care and Happy Advent to you all...cheers

Hello ?

Hey All,

I am sure you guys noticed some changes on my blog....and more to come....just need more time and ideas.

As year 2011 is approaching pretty soon... So, decided to make changes on what I write in my blog (Anything that I will post) I want it to be more personal and regarding on my journey as a wife and mother....and maybe some other stuff too....

I want to share abt my kids, happy and obstacles in my life....(not soo personal ah) Lol..

Well, ..I know that I've not updated my blog like forever but please again bare with me. Please stay tuned. There a lot of stuff going on now and I need to find a queit time and just do this...

Happy Advent to ya all.....just in case I am still busy to update.....

I need to update and re-arrange

Oh blog,my blog is messy. Need to do more arrangement.

Have been busy too with my 3 toodlers. Growing up so fast and not enough time for everything. Need better time management for me :)

Life have been great and such a Blessing. Thank you Lord.

Hubby is coming back tomorrow. Yay, so excited. Tho, he'l be here for only 3 nites n back to work. Yet still, we are
greatful that we still can spend Q time together with each
other and the kids. I imagine myself that having my spouse
working in the army or any occupation that requires the family not to see each other for years. Bless them with health, faith and love.

There so much that I want to say but maybe I should save it till my next post... Till then

:)y

September

Hello September...

It had been a hectic month. So many things have to be done. I am sure hope that everything will be settle soon.

Kids are fine and doing great. Leah and Leevan had been pretty busy with their practice for the school concert in November. Lana is learning to speak. Its so funny to hear her speak; I try not to laugh cause it might discourage her. She is a tough and strong girl. Even the brother gets annoy, when they are in a fight. Anyhow, we can't wait for November and will be attending Leah and Leevan's school concert. Its Leah's graduation day too. She will be attending Yue Min for her kinder years.....

Our house is still not done yet....far then expected especially with finance problem at the moment. We just need to be patient. Here is the latest update tho of our humble house;

 Well, why its taking so long?  There are way too many things to be done on this house. At first, We had to demolish everything except for the main beams. Then they had to do piling behind as we are extanding  downstairs and upstairs. Onces all the piling was done, then they can start on the structure. Did I mention that we have a particular fussy neighbour? Wah, so susah to nego with her. Doing house reno of course noisy but with her interupting all the time, all the work had to be stop. She even gave time when my contractor's worker can start and which day they can work...Arghhhhh.....so, its taking more time. Tho, what my hubby did was, he told the contractor kasih tinggi2 tu wall sebelah dia cause we dnt like nossy neighbour like her. Bless her and forgive us. Crossing my fingers that this house reno can be done and harap2 me kena jackpot so that can help hubby finish up the house....Stressfull.......but I know its worth it. Our own place at last even tho we hope for a Kg house in future. Another story about it next time.

Some latest pics of my children...



I thinks thats all from me for now....till then.....

Tuhun TavaKas

Hey Ya all,

If you happen to be around and don't have any plans, please do come and witness the Tuhun Tavakas Challenges (Orang Kuat)

There will be few activities and jual- jual around there too...

See you there

Fun and Laughters

Every alternate weekends, I sometimes will send my kids to my parents house. They love going to their grandparents houses. That means, some times for me and hubby to spend with Lana or dating day for us.

Every weekend, there must be activities for them. I want them to enjoy their childhood as what Me and Hubby had....a childhood fill with fun and laughter. Days that they will remember :) I think I am doing a great job towards motherhood. Everyday is a proses of learning for me...that way, I become better each day and improve myself in many ways.....aside from discovering something new too.

This weekend, Leah and Leevan are at my parent's house. They will enjoy the Kampung life....Before going to Lola and ahKung's hse...
Me: Leah, you wanna go and visit lola's hse today?
Yaya: Ok, but you must fetch us home ok? I dnt want to sleep in Lola's hse...
Me: Why?  Yaya: Mummy, Lola's hse no disney channel...I cnt watch cartoon cause ahkung watch big ppl Tv. Me: Ok, I come later ok? I go out with Lana first...
Yaya: OK..I Love you Mummy...Daddy..

That evening
Me: Yaya, MummyDaddy coming already to fetch you ok?
Yaya: No Mummy, you come tomorrow. I come home tomorrow after you go church with dadddy...Mummy n daddy go church 1st tomorrow.
Me: Yaya don't want to go home? Yaya: I want to spend time with Lola 1st...can Mummy pls?
Me: Ok...I see u tomorrow morning k..We go playground.

The next morning
Me: Yaya, you want to go playground? Yaya: Nope, tomorrow k. I still want to play bah in lola's hse
Me: Ok, you dnt give Lola headache k..Later lola sick later...
Yaya: ok Mummy...I already give Lola headache.... Me: ????? (just my typical Leah)

I am happy that my kids are having fun with their grandparent and having that opportunities to be with them and being cared by their grandparents. My parents are happy to be spending time with them too...How I've wished I had that opportunity but at least my kids are.

In my time, I grow up to know only my popo from my dad side. My ahkung and Lolo past away before I was even born. I've only meet my Lola onces in the Phils just before she past away. Its so sad. Anyhow, I had great time with my popo until she passed away almost 1 years plus ago.....so heart wreaking but We all know that she is in a better place now and watching over us all.

My kids have  the privilege of knowing both of their grandparents.....both they manja.....always smiling and many stories to tell Mummy and Daddy....lol.....

My kids sow the better of me and Hubby.... We will sacrifice anything for them. I want them to be close to me and daddy always....always...

I Thank You Lord for the miracles that you've brought  upon our family...Guide us always to become good parent and help us in your Grace to shape up our children's future.

How I WISH

Hookus pocus........please let my house renovation be done now.......

Ah......its so tiring just thinking of our house renovation....taking ages to finish it up.....ongkos also tia cukup cukup this.....so, have to take slow and steady lar....penat o jg menyewa this kan...

Ah......I will just wait for that moment..its all God's willing :)

My latest project

I am currently working own a project....an album project in fact :) . I am compiling all my children baby pictures in an album. 1 album for each of my kids.

Lucky me that I still have some of the baby pictures in multiply. So, before I lost all these memorable pictures, I better start on my project and from there...I will update them as they grow.

All these years, I never had the chances to start on an album. I just had no time but I must make the effort from now on. These album will be their memories as they grow up and for them to see whenever they want. Actually, for me to follow their growth as they progress...Yay, I can't believe that they are growing so fast.

I love you babies so much. Mummy Loves you all

Hugs and kisses from Mummy always

Monday -Friday Morning

Leah usually wake up wee early in the morning. She knows her daily routine...drink milk, wash up, dress up for school and eat her breakfast before going to school....However, dress up is my most challenging time with her. She can't decide what to wear, she will take her time choosing accessories to match up with her dress (I know, awal2 sudah bergaya lah) and will ask me to change her hairstyle if she didn't like the one I tied earlier on..... ( sabar sajal lar or eslse she won't want to go to school)

Leevan in the other hand always wake up late......
Me: Leevan, wake up....time to go to school..
Leevan: No......i don't want...I want to sleep
Me: Leevan....please.......
Only the waking up time is hard for Leevan but after that easy peas to prepare Leevan for school......

Kids.....my kids are growing up so fast. Lana just can't wait to join her big sister and brother to school.
I kesian her every morning minta ikut this. Sometimes I will bring her to tag with me to send her siblings to school....

Kids, we just can't get enough of them...There are time we can be stressful but in a good way and they are full of surprises....They can say the sweetest thing to you and will make you day so good by just thinking of them. I am grateful for the Blessing. Thank you Lord :)

Friday

It s Friday, finally...

What should we do tomorrow? Thinking of some activities with the kids.

My weekdays went by really fast..I was occupied with my daily routine, children and household. Hubby finally called me this week. All this while, we did YM and SKYPING. Thank goodness for technologies.

Had a cup with few of my friends. We had a nice chat. Daily life, our childrens, families, some complicated issues, religion and so on.

I can't believe that time flies really fast. We had be friends for a very long time now. WE shared so much memories and we do understand that we are all busy with our daily lives. We do have catfights and yet we still make up. We know who are our true friends in life. Friends that are always with you no matter what...she is indeed a true friends. A true friend that try and do understand you. A friend that will tell you the truth and bad mouth you and yet makes us think of postive attitude in facing people that are two face. No a friend that would creat another cat fight..Lol...

I am happy that I have great friends around..Friends that care and love me. A friends that I can depend on. A friends that will tell you the truth..A friend that are precious...A friend that I am so greatful to GOD. I pray that they will aways stay the same, be love, healthy and most of all, be true to themselves.

I feel that there is no point to bad mouth people that are so unfortunate cause of their attitude. I hope they will realise it and will change. Time will tell everything I am sure. I can be frustrated at times but I am gonna stay at the right line. I do not want to be that type of people. I am not perfect but I want to conquer my bad habits. People can be so vain and we do need a helping hand to be a better person. Leaning from mistakes, experiences and people that can guide us when we lost our way.

I am grateful, so greatful to have Children, Hubby, parents, parents in law, siblings, family and freinds that I LOVE dearly. I am blessed to have so much support and LOVE around me ; )

Saturday

A great day for me and my kids...




Send Leah to school for her field trip to Green Connection. Proceed breakfast with my Mum and accompanied her to pay ccm....heeeeheee.



Fetch Leevan and my sister. We went to BUndusan market...Yay...spend RM80 on fish, RM 20 on veges and RM 50 on fruits...Banyak juga lar...hopefully can last us more then a week..



Sent Mum to donggongon. We went home and packed the kids stuff and off to fetch Leah from school......Arrived Sutera and the kids started to have fun in the kiddies club as usual. Had our Lunch and rest. We went swimming approx around 2P.M....siok oooo...Leevan didn't want to leave the pool. We were done with swimming around 4.30 P.M. Had dinner in sutera with the kids...



It was a busy day in Sutera because of the 7K sunset run...arghh.....too many people. But siok looking at them running and walking while I drive past them. Send my helper home. On the way, all my 3 kids fell asleep.....heeeeheeeee



Was home around 6.30 P.M Changed my kids cloths to their pyjama. Carried them to their bed....



As my kids are laying on the bed fast asleep......I felt silent...The house is quiet. Not the usual noisy day. I miss that mood instantly. However, I know they are tired and they need their sleep. It will be another busy day for us tomorrow morning...



I am glad that I am spending every most of my time with them. I will sure remember and miss this moment when they grow older. Especially when Leah and Leevan say, Mummy...I love you. They just take my breath away. I can't wait for Lana to say those words to me too...My 3 beautiful babies...my precious...



I think, the day went by really fast but well spent. My kids had fun the most...which I am dedicated to make sure that my kids will enjoys their childhood.....



Mummy Love you guys...xoxoxo

Thinking

I am thinking of terminating my blog...........arghhh.......

I don't understand why there are so many comments in chinese...why just don't write in english? As if I understand or just....hmmmmnnnn....whatever it is, I prefer my fellow bloggers that would like to comment...pls write in english....if you were to write in chinese..pls don't bother...I don't understand them..I am SORRY...

Thanks for your co-operation.

Morning

Hey ya Peeps,

Good Morning ya all......

Can't believe that we are in the month of July already. Time flies really fast this year. Don't you think so?

Well, nothing much from me today. Its just my normal day routine with the kids. Anyhow, this month will be our 5th wedding anniversary...Heeeehee. No celebration or so as usual as my hubby will be leaving offshore soon....if I am not mistaken on the 8th July. We normally wish each other Happy Anniversary on the phone and A Happy Birthday to Him. We got married on his birthday date...so, he gets extra wishes....  :)

Our Wedding Annivesary fall on the 22nd of July. Yay, We are happily married for 5 years now and Blessed with 3 wonderful babies. Our Babies had been a Blessing for us and a Life changing experience.

Hubby had always have this WONDERFUL and yet ROMANTIC idea for our 10th Wedding Anniversary. Hubby plans to renew our vows on the 10th years of our marrige. He keeps on telling me..Baby, I will give you your DREAM wedding ;) . I was flartted to hear that from my Hubby...He will tell me that every year on our Wedding Anniversary. I don't blame him why we wanted to celebrate it again...He wants to have a small function and celebrate it with our close family and friends. A Day that will be memorable for the rest of our lives..A token of appreciation on the journey we had  and yet more to come. Well, with GOD's willing, everything can come TRUE right? As long we keep our FAITH and LOVE strong and remember our main purpose...everything will be OK.

Well, I dont mind whether there is a celebration or not....I am Happy cause we are married and knowing that we have each other. A life that I am willingly to go through with my HUbby..all the obstacles and bumps we will sure go through and and the sweet memories we had collected and more to come. Its been a BLESSING for me. I THANK YOU LORD for all the Blessings.

Maybe in my next post, I should share what is my dream wedding...Haaahaaa..should I? nanti kena cakap minta puji leh....Heeeeheeeee....Its my journal anyway....Take it or Leave it lar kan..I could not be bothered..Its my life and I don't mind other ppl's thinks. I am opened to it....Sumtimes kan, ada sj this neg comms yg tdk membina...Lol..so neg..why ah? I think its not wrong to get a break and DREAM.... Susah jg ppl yg Neg...Haaahaa...Whatever lar.

Till my next post..... :)

My 3 Precious babies

I was on top of the WORLD when I know I was pregnant. I was so excited and expecting the best for mummy hood. I want to be the best Mother for children and cater all their needs. I want to be at their side at all times and see all the steps that they will venture in this journey......

When the time came...I was overwhelmed and overjoyed to held Leah, Leevan and Lana in my arms...They were so fragile and innocent....My lil precious changed my life for GOOD.

Leah

Leah 1 day old

Leah - 4 years old

Leevan 1 day old

Leevan 2 years old

Lana 1 day old

Lana 1 year old (at her birthday party)

For the labor experience, kudos to me. I did great despite all the obstacles I had to go through..I am a Proud Mother to my WONDERFUL childrens. I PROMISE that I will do my best in everything to raise my babies to be a good PERSON. I will SUPPORT my babies in any ways and to be at their side each time they need me. I LOVE YOU my babies and completed my LIFE. xoxoxo

My Multiply...

I almost forgotten about my Multiply . Before I started blogging here...I used to blog there....

Now, I am gonna update my multiply more often. Its more convinient to me with all the applications are allready for use.

My wedding pics are there...my 1st pregnancy...i held my precious one for the 1st time..awwwww...all those memorable pics are so priceless....

We are looking forward....

Oh yeah, our tickets are booked and looking forward for our trip to Jakarta...Yihaaaaaa.......but the trip will be only in March 2011.

Lama ooo I did'nt travel cause I gave birth 2 years in a row kan...2008 and 2009...so was not convinient for me...mcn tu lah tu I feel kalo anak ada ramai skit...keeeekeee. However, I am only bringing Leah...Leevan and Lana will be at thier Kung2 and Lola's hse...theu will be 3 years and 2 years by that time...so, I won't susah hati so much or RASA BERSALAH this....heeeheee.

I am looking forward to see Indonesian cultures and also for the Shoppppppping....heeeeeeheeeee. I heard its like Haven o mau shop there...I know lama again but pejam kelip, pejam kelip...nah, march already 2011.

However, I am a bit worried if ngam2 that time...same timing kami move house....eyeeeeeeeeeeee, I hope not so....Hubby said, latest will be in March or else will be in May..mau tengok kewangan dong......heeeheee...I don't want to worry and bingung my kepala about the house....mesti tunggang tebalik that...........................................lama again, I don't want to think about it 1st lar..tau tu nanti..

signing off......

Self Confidances

Oh yeah....I am losing it.....LOl.

Before, I've always hope that how I can turn back the time...but NOW, I am GREATFUL for everything..the GOOD and the BAD. I learned a lot from it. Mistakes that made me a better person I am now and also the great memories that I collected along this journey.

What I mean is that...I don't feel CUTE anymore.....haaaahaaaa. I can't wear those cute pretty dresses not skinny jeans, tight cloths and so on.....the list can go on and on......My hair is in a mess and my face needs facial.....heeeeeheeee..

However, I should not complaint. I am not the only one. I will have that time if my interest have not changed tho by that time. Haaaahaaa..My piorities are my children now. I had my momont already....Heeehee (dulu2 bah bila blum kahwin and masi dating2.....) Thats why I got married early....Bunga telah dipetik they said. I am still young after all and I have 3 wonderful children...They are growing up so fast after all....By that time, we will be super close and share the same interest I hope with my girls....

So....I  am not losing my confidances after all...its just that I am busy with kids and chores at home...Lol..silly me...........after all, Hubby is providing the best to us...why complaint? keeekee.....mulau bah....I Thank Lord for the abundance gift and blessing from HIM.


I think I got my case to rest....need to cari masa saja bah this..not at this near moment tho.....me again now this ada mood baking and cooking. I am becoming a better housewife and mother to my own family...an improvement and kudos to me..after all, those can wait even tho still need to take care. Neglecting our children is a No NO No.....

Have a great day ya all.... :)

I Miss being pregnant..

Pregnant again.....!!! Nope, I am not...Lol. How is wish I am. Unfortunately, Dr. S don't advise to get pregnant again because of some complicated matters if I do get pregnant again. If I do get pregnant this near future, I have 2 choice..either to give up my life or my lil one...so, the best solution for me is to prevent...

Chances to have another..? Yes, I can but in maybe after 5 years time..which maybe too risky for me and the baby still...according to my gynea. still long way to go tho..

However, I like being pregnant. I think being pregnant, I can eat as much as I can and also feel my baby grow the whole 9 months. I feel that I am sooo damn beautiful also when I am pregnant..I think, I am always glowing...LOl (perasan time)

But, when I was pregnant, jealous pula me see people slim...can wear all those sexy maxi dresses and clothes..Yay...but, mau slim bukan senang oooooooo...a lot of discipline and work out...wanna look sexy after giving birth, u need to work for it....haaaaahaa (which I am lack of)

I remmeber when I was pregnant, I can eat all those yummy food without getting worried but now....mau makan pun susah hati...(budu kan) The beauty of being pregnant, sooo siok. its just that, it can be tiring and so..where else,when I am not pregnant, I can do many things......Well, I think there are advantages and disadvantages or being pregnant and not pregnant...

Now, I am enjoying my time with my little ones...being with them and see them grow...the beauty of being a SAHM...till my next post

Trying to generate and still trying

As I mention before, being a stay at home can be a GREAT experience. I know not everybody enjoy to be a stay at home mum or had the privilage. I am LUCKY and GREATFUL.

Anyhow, being a SAHM can be very flexible with time; not always but there are free time. I do not regrat that I don't have the privilage to work I do envy some cause they can generate their own income. Chasing dreams that I have long to achieve but I know there will be a time for that...

However, I come across with this website especially for Mothers. Mothers that are eager to learn and to generate income as well. I am still new and still learning but it opened my mind. I wish I could chase my dreams and yet small step at a time.

Below is the website that maybe anyone of you are interested

ehomakers.net

Happy Mothers Day to All Mums and Mum to be....xoxoxo

A blessing and prayer tribute to all mothers

"Blessed be all mothers

Who have come into our lives

Whose kindness, care and loving

Remain with us to guide.

Your inspiration in us

Made us strive in every way

Especially to remember

Helping others makes our day.

Mothers, this little tribute

Flows directly from my heart

You are so loved and cherished

Invaluable, one and all, you are.

Susan Kramer

A Mother's Love

There are times when only a Mother's love

Can understand our tears,

Can soothe our disappoints

And calm all of our fears.

There are times when only a Mother's love

Can share the joy we feel

When something we've dreamed about

Quite suddenly is real.

There are times when only a Mother's faith

Can help us on life's way

And inspire in us the confidence

We need from day to day.

For a Mother's heart and a Mother's faith

And a Mother's steadfast love

Were fashioned by the Angels

And sent from God above.

Author Unknown

You Were There...

You were there when we took our first steps,

And went unsteadily across the floor.

You pushed and prodded: encouraged and guided,

Until our steps took us out the door...

You worry now "Are they ok?"

Is there more you could have done?

As we walk the paths of our unknown

You wonder"Where have my children gone?"

Where we are is where you have led us,

With your special love you showed us a way,

To believe in ourselves and the decisions we make.

Taking on the challenge of life day-to-day.

And where we go you can be sure,

In spirit you shall never be alone.

For where you are is what matters most to us,

Because to us that will always be home...

Author Unknown

Hello May and Happy Birthday to my Lil Lana

Hello and good day everyone...

I can't believe that it's the month of May already..Time flies super duper fast ever since I had my kids. They are growing up so fast.

I remember as a student..long long time ago (tolivot time), time flies so slow..I just can't wait to grow up and be 18...haaahaaa. But now if you ask me, I miss my student life..so so much....

Anyway, this post is about Lana..Its her birthday tomorrow..wishing my daughter a 1 YEAR. We LOVE you so much baby...and you will grow to be a GRACEFUL girl...

Breakfast at McDonald

Breakfast at McDonald's

This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting facts!):

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.

The last class I had to take was Sociology.

The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.

Her last project of the term was called, 'Smile.'

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions..

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So, I thought this would be a piece of cake,

literally.

Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning.

It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.

We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then

even my husband did.

I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved..

As I turned around I smelled a horrible 'dirty body' smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was 'smiling'

His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance.....

He said, 'Good day' as he counted the few coins he had been clutching..

The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.

I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.

He said, 'Coffee is all Miss' because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.

That is when I noticed all eyes in the

restaurant were set on me, judging

my every action.

I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray..

I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand..

He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, 'Thank you.'

I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, 'I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope.'

I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son... When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, 'That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope..'

We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers.

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand.

I turned in 'my project' and the instructor read it.

Then she looked up at me and said, 'Can I share this?'

I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.

She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my son,the instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.

I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:

UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to

LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS -

NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.

There is an Angel sent to watch over you..

In order for her to work, you must pass this on to the people you want watched over.

An Angel wrote:

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart

To handle yourself, use your head..

To handle others, use your heart.

God gives every bird it's food, but He does not throw it into its nest.

A box of gold

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

With a secret inside

that has never been told

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

This box is priceless

but as I see

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

The treasure inside is

precious to me

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Today I share this

treasure with thee

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

It's the treasure of

friendship you've

given me.

I miss You PoPo

I miss you so much...too much...Po..I wish u were still here but We know that you are in a better PLACE. We LOVE YOU

I Don't bother nor I don't CARE..wasting my precious time

No body aint PERFECT...same goes to me....so what If I am ME...BETTER then being YOU...haaahaaa...
I think thats WHY your not HAPPY...too BUSY BODY and BAD mouthing PEOPLE.

AT least I don't bother and yet..still I AM very HAPPY while you ROOt in you LIFE. Lol...you know what, because I am ME and I don't bother what people say cause your not the one FEEDING my FAMILY.

I LOVE BEING ME :P and I am HAPPY with my FAMILY....I am not PERFECT but I am doing the BEST that I could...Good people don't bother what you say cause only GOD can judge US. We as human being can help and advice but if you can't take it...LEAVE it. Nobody run away from mistakes bah..so what la bah if I am not perfect...let it be...I dont want to be you..I want to be ME..Let me grow my kids with my style...not yours. I think my kids are happier...I will learn from it time by time..one step at a time....ok? AND yes, ACTION speak louder then WORDS :p

p/s: piece of ADVICE...if you stop envying others and just concerntrate what you have and build it to be BETTER, I think you won't be MISRABLE. you will be smiling with sincerity and people will love you despite everything happened in the PAST.

Decision..decision..decision

After stepping into MARRIEGE life and having CHILDREN, there are so much to think and decision to be made...SAKIT this KEPALA..Lol...

Life is no more about ME anymore..its about my husband and children. Life is not tough but its a challenge. Its no more of me who USED to be a SHopholic. I spend most of my paycheque on shoes and cloths...I USED to LOVE FASHION but now, I have to divert my attention to more important things in life...

Soon, I have to enroll Leah to a kinder...I just can't decide which one and definetely I want the best for my lil girl. The surrounding of the school, the teaching techiques and so on. I never thought its gonna be that hard. I want my Leah to learn chinese and at the same time will boost her confidances among friends around her. I don't want her to HATE school and get lose in the middle. Me and Hubby still have few weeks to go before school kinder registration close.

My son Leevan will stay in Angel playschool which I find to be one of the best decision I made. The results from that school is termendous. Leevan knows few alphabet already and colors too....I will enroll Lana there too next year. The principle can be very helpful. Leah is a briallint girl quote by the teachers but she has one problem which is the PEMALAS penyakit. 1day she can do something so good and fast but sometimes, u have to bug her at all times...

I am already deciding which primary to send...Aiya....who though parenthood can be tough....lol...All the best to me...I know i will make the right the decisions for my children...Just wait and see....

Times flies

Its almost mid of April and soon HELLO month of May soon. Lana will turn 1 yrs old soon....Oh, my lil bongsu baby...she is growing up too fast. In fact, she is heavy for me...cannot carry too long cause sakit tangan but pasal sayang..tahan saja lar.. My Lana is so SUPER DUPER attached to ME...Yay..and nobody can carry her...menangis that terus....She is learning to walk now....soon, pandai jalan....lagi lar susah mau jaga but anything for our lil bongsu..its a process of growing....my lil precious bongsu....She is learning her words now..cant wait for her to say daddy and mummy....She is so sweet and always smiling to US...she loves to be around wth her siblings.She is daring and tia takut punya this..berani ..thats my lil bongsu...funny to see that she can quarell wth her big bro sumtimes...pandai berpukul..lol ...

My lil brother Leevan....he is my lil michevious boy....sweet and sneaky in away.....helpful and like to buang sampah in the rubiish bin...Lol....He is talking in sentences now...slowly...from one word into a sentences....sweet that he is trying to be smart...many cant get enough of him cause his charming...mcn the daddy i guess...but can be so gerigitan cause aou pandai mokinongou.......grrrr..but his my little boy, my little Leevan..now 2 years old and still growing..He likes to mimik the daddy..putting on daddy shoes...wanna ride on the bike and so....just boy stuffs....oh, i dnt know later but now he just loves cooking...like to follow me to d kitchen and help me out..i let him do all the simple things...He is too attached wth his turtle that He cant sleep wthout it......my lil and only boy....always makes us smile wth his natural way..like d daddy in fact...can be so clowny...lol

Leah....my big sister....my super smart lil girl and talk like an adult. She always impress ppl when she start opening her mouth...yay, me sendiri pun can terkilan onces awhile....things that they learn from TV and observing adult talking (so, watch out what comes out from your mouth). I have to be careful what I say and do cause she really likes to learn. I am proud of her..she knows how to write her name and knows all her siblings full name...thats my big sister. Leah can be so helpful and a reporter to me and daddy about her siblings...she will tell us what happens...I am proud tht she is a responsible sister and will protect them. My big sister controls the pc, laptop, iphone and TV at home.....must pandai bargain wth her...yay...I love my leah as she is..sweet and loving....

My children  are all growing up too fast......too fast that I might not catch up.....I always tell them them not to grow up so fast but pandai lar they jawab me...hmmmnnn. Anyhow, i know my kids have a very kind heart....a kind heart and very loving......I THANK GOD for the GREATEST GIFT ever...my children. Nothing more that can't top up what I have.......I LOVE THEM too MUCH...They are the reason that I M here....to care, to love and to provide them the best....xoxo

Hello month of APRIL

I turned 2 on the 15/3...( Leevan & his beau smile)

My big Boy LeeVan

Its April now. A new month and end of Lent. Anyhow, would love to wish everyone a Blessed EASTHER.

I miss my blog so much.....I do log in everyday and just do some blog hopping. I am kinda super duper lazy to write. So much to tell and yet I do not know where to start...

To cut it short, have been super busy with house reno...yay!!! sakit my kepala..who said it was easy....I even told my hubby, B...I don't think I can take this...too much input, too much servay have to be done and mau budget2 again....can you do it alone ka? Hubby replied, NO, its our hse...so we do it together........Me....hmmmnnnn.....jadi??? Sakit o my kepala want to think...how ah? Few days after....B, I got ID for you...so, easy lar....he plan then u just change what you don't like. Me..Ok, thanks Hubby...keeekee ( case terlampau manja hubby). Harap2 lar cukup the ongkos so can finish on time...malas o mau sewa2 odi this....*crossing fingers*

I did read a post from chegu Carol..about if money grow on trees....sure yours truly will sayang2 it so much...keeekeee...it was an intresting post from chegu....me likey

My kids turn 4 and 2 last month.......will post Leevan birthday in school....wanted to post it earlier on but again..LAzy...

Have a GREAT month ahead peeps..............Cheers

My Family

My Everything and My WORLD....

My Children especially and my Better Half....I Thank GOD for the PRECIOUS GIFT that I received and will LOVE them UNCONDITIONLY.

A copy Paste but worth reading

LET THIS TRUE STORY SERVE AS A WARNING




To the men : warn your loved ones!

To the women : remember this!



About a month ago there was a woman standing by the Mega Mall entrance passing out flyers to all the women going in. The woman had written the flyer herself to tell about an experience she had, so that she might warn other women.



The previous day, this woman had finished shopping, went out to her car and discovered that she had a flat. She got the jack out of the trunk and began to change the flat. A nice man dressed in business suit and carrying a briefcase walked up to her and said,



'I notice you're changing a flat tire. Would you like me to take care of it for you?'



The woman was grateful for his offer and accepted his help. They chatted amiably while the man changed the flat, and then put the flat tire and the jack in the trunk, shut it and dusted his hands off.



The woman thanked him profusely, and as she was about to get in her car, the man told her that he left his car around on the other side of the mall, and asked if she would mind giving him a lift to his car. She was a little surprised and asked him why his car was on the other side. He explained that he had met an old friend in the mall whom he hadn't seen for some time and they had a bite to eat and visited for a while; he got turned around in the mall and left through the wrong exit, and now he was running late and his car was clear around on the other side of the mall.



The woman hated to tell him 'no' because he had just rescued her from having to change her flat tire all by herself, but she felt uneasy. Then she remembered seeing the man put his briefcase in her trunk before shutting it and before he asked her for the ride to his car.



She told him that she'd be happy to drive him to his car, but she just remembered one last thing she needed to buy. She said she would only be a few minutes; he could sit down in her car and wait for her; she would be as quick as she could be. She hurried into the mall, and told a security guard what had happened; the guard came out to her car with her, but the man had left.



They opened the trunk, took out his locked briefcase and took it down to the police station. The police opened it (ostensibly to look for ID so they could return it to the man). What they found was rope, duct tape and knives.



When the police checked her 'flat' tire, there was nothing wrong with it; the air had simply been let out. It was obvious what the man's motive was, and obvious that he had carefully thought it out in advance.



The woman was blessed to have escaped harm. How much worse it would have been had she waited in the car while the man fixed the tire, or if she had a baby strapped into a car seat. Or if she'd gone against her judgment and given him a lift. I'd like you to forward this to all the women you know.



It may save a life. A candle is not dimmed by lighting another candle. I was going to send this to the ladies only; but guys, if you love your mothers, wives, sisters, daughters, etc., you may want to pass it on to them as well.



Send this to any woman you know that may need to be reminded that the world we live in has a lot of crazies in it.... better safe than sorry.





PLEASE BE SAFE AND NOT SORRY!

Happy Birthday To Us

Mummy Leah Sweet 29 (2/3) and my dearest Daughter Leah is 4 (3/3) years old

Happy Birthday to Us...

We THANK YOU LORD for another year to look forward to and many years to come...We are TRUELY BLESSED with all our WONDERFUL family and friends

Eat Right For Your Type

Hello dear Peeps..

Recently, I found this web that might be useful for other bloggers that want to lose weight. I read through this web after a young and sexy lady introduced it to me.

I meet this lady  in the gym. I was so amazed with her body figure and decided dengan tia malu nya went to ask her. Lucky me she was friendly and did'nt mind to share the information with me.

I did follow her advice and I got result. However, I did stop for awhile and soon after that..I start to gained weight again. Susah bah mau mantain when my hubby is around....Makan only.

Hubby is going to work soon, so I am going to start my diet again......I hope, I will lose weight again...Lol..
wanna have that eva Langoria body.....wahaaaahaaa......montok2....

Here is the website and don't forget to check it out....http://www.dadamo.com/

Lets lose those excess weight TOGETHER

House Renovation

OH GOSH!!!!!!! thats my exact word........

I did'nt know that renovating a house can be such a HEADACHE. Planning for the new positions, having disagreement with my so loving hubby and contractor, negotiating on the time frame and such.

However, my so loving Hubby let me have the final say ( yahoo, lucky me) and the contractor is my hubby's friend and my senior from school...Laaaalaaalaa..so, it made the work easier for me and Hubby.

Hubby keep on reminding me, don't go over board with the house details and please stick to the budget...as we won't be staying here forever. Its just for time being until we manage to raise the fund for our retirement house (maybe there I can go crazy with all the details but I want to be a small house)

So far, we had finalize and waiting for the interior design before they start destroying and pilling for the extention. The new position for all for 4 bedrooms, washroom, dining room, living room and my fav the kitchen.

I just can't wait to post some pic of the house in progress. Moving in by September and no more rent to pay at last.....Wah, a little by little and a step at a time....everything finally goes as planned...SWEET..

Till then......xoxoxo

Marriege

MARRIAGE




When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.



Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly.



She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?



I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!



With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.



She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.



The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.



When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.



In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.

She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.



This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.



She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.



I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully..



My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.



On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.



On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.



On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.



She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.



Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.



Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.



But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.



I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.



She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.



Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.



At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.



That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.



The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!



If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.



If you do, you just might save a marriage.





Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.





A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.



Wherefore they are no more twain, but one flesh. What therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder. Matthew 19:6

The Needy and the Greedy or The UN necesseries

Hey peeps.....

This is gonna be another long and boring entry...Lol...so be prepared whoever is reading this. This is also a repetative entry that I've been blogging about......wanna be debt free~~~~~dreaming for now.g

I like blog hoping and read other peoples adventures. Learn about places that others went to visit or so. I like looking at pictures too in FB....all the nice places to visit and adventure.....

Like many others, I love to travel if there is an opportunity but Un fortunately I don't have that time nor money to spend on...Lol. All I can do is dream but its not wrong right?

I would ask my hubby, can I go to KL and meet my best friend an maybe do a little shopping? My hubby will reply, yes you CAN B. I would smile in delight as I know i can go BUT the excitement  would only last for awhile because I will end up not wanting to go. Haaaahaa. I wouldl feel bad because I will leave the children and surely I will miss them so much. Apart from that, I am afraid that I will dissapoint my hubby even tho he gave me the green light. Lol. Hubby will ask, when your going to KL? I will go like...cancel...I don't feel like going and the thrill is no more there...then we would laugh. My hubby would know whats in my mind. However, he would be nice by getting my nice things in exchange even tho I don't ask for it....lucky me.

Actually, We have this  3 years plan ahead. We would love our loans for our kasigui house, our mamut villa and cars to be all paid off by end 2012. Apart from that, each our children would have 50K( the more the better I hope) in saving. It sound hard to achieve but if we really concerntrate on our vision, maybe we would eventually achieve it. The longest time would be end of 2013....Meaning, no travelling, less shopping and so on.

Hubby would always said to me, it would be great if everything are all paid off and we do not need to worry about debts anymore. All our children future are secured. After that, we can do anything that we have been dreaming  and maybe build our last small kg house ( or we would say our retirement house); where we can plant veges. I would laugh at that each time he brings it up...( I would imagine that moent and smile). When we come back from travelling, we do not need to worry about debts to pay off house loans and so. Lol. I would always smile when he tells me  of his plans for our future. My Hubby would always remind me....We are the needy one. We work and get money for the necessary one only for now...we do not need to be greedy. Being greedy will not take you no where after all. I think that is well said from my Hubby. Stepping on ground rather then flying off to cloud nine...Haaaahaaa.

So, I will not think of travelling and so on for now. I want to implement the dream that my Hubby sets for us. It is for our own good. After all, everything will go to our children. That is more important right? Children are the heart to our soul, wihout them...we would not be here where we are standing now.....

I am dreaming off a life where life will be lighter and free. A life where my family can enjoy rather then thinking of a 30 years loan to be paid ahead. Everything is worth to be sacrifice for the children.

Hubby too will celebrate our 10 years wedding anniversary that I would be looking forward to...Haaahaa. Hubby said it will be our DREAM wedding where we can renew our vows(that would be romantic) with very super close family and friends.

As for now, I will keep on doing what I like..looking at pictures and enjoy blog hopping. I would learn a lot from there. WHo knows, 5 years from now...I will be on smile travelling with my hubby and children...

Chiao from me.....xoxoxo

Happy February

Hello my dear friends...

How's everyone? I hope everyone is doing great. I hope everyone had a good month of January.

Its February now...and we know Valentines and Chinese New Year fall on the same day. It means a lot of eating, receiving gifts and ang paus for the singles...lol.

Nothing much from me...I just miss my blog...so much. Life have been good for me. Weheeeeee...
Oh, did I mention? I received early present from my hubby....heeeehee. I love it so much. Hubby said, kasi awal cause our 2 kids fall on the same month....so tia rasa when i get the kids gift..Leah on the 3/3 and Leevan 15/3 and mine on the 2/3.

Did you guys checked out the new furniture warehouse along jalan penampang? I cant rememeber so please spare me. I find the place is quite reasonable.

What more? Oh ya, one afternoon, I was checking on my Fb and found out Elda was pregnant pula so I congratulate  her...that evening, I went to Giant suerpmarket City Mall with Hubby and saw her there. We had a small chatt...Lol...What a considance kan......

We attended Jerome and Judith's wedding today with hubby. It was beautiful. The Bride blushing Gorgeous and the Groom is so cool...steady ko sana Jerome....

Stayed home most of the time now as my kids are not feeling well....Leevan on and off fever and Lana is having flu.

I guess thats it for today...Happy month of February to all.......and have a GREAT one.....

My Dreams

I have been thinking? What will life be 10 years from now????I will be 39 years at that time. My kids will be all grown up and don't know what else...LOL...

10 years from now, I do hope some of our dreams do come true.......it start with a dream, a bit of imagination and hard work...I am sure those dreams will come true.

As for now, we are trying our best to make those dreams come true one by one...one step at a time.

As for these year, we are hoping to move in to our own house. Hoping before end of the year. I don't want so many of complicated renovation or so...All I want it to be liveable and comfortable...A home and not a house. We do not want to waste more money on house rental. Its a waste that we need to pay rental for a house that do not belong to us.

Apart from that, I am going to be so relief that by next year...my prado will  be belong to me and not the bank...Habis bayar at last........I just can't wait. By next year, we only need to pay our vacation home in Ranau. We want to be debt free 10 years from now.....

Another 5 years from now, its gonna be our 10th years wedding anniversary too. This year, we will be our 5th wedding anniversary. Nothing fancy or anything but we do hope to get away for quiete time. Our 1st honeymoon maybe..lol. We do not plan to go anywhere far tho, mayb some place that we both agreed on. On an island and maybe great diving..planning around lankayan, kapalai or maybe mabul but everything arent sure yet with My hubby's working schedule, anything can happen. We just wait and see. We do plan renew our vows on the 10th anniversary. It was my hubby's idea. However, its just a plan and anything can happens.

We do hope to have enough or maybe more then enough savings for our childrens educations. We hope to provide and they will be able to achieve their dreams. We our kids to be good children with a kind heart and successfull indeed. We want them to be a good role model to one another.

As for now, I am concerntrating on the house renovations and crossing fingers that we will move in by as soon as possible....till then......cheers

my 1st 2010 entry and my great 2009

Hey ya all Peeps....

Happy New Year to you all.....I hope its not too late. Its the 14th day of our year....so much looking forward and taking everyday one time at a time.....

Leah will turn 4 years, Leevan will turn 2 years and my baby Lana will turn  1....my precious babies are growing up so fast. in fact, too fast......i am literally trying my best not to miss any special moments in thier life. They are my miracles.....

Year 2010 had just started and there are so many events happening here and there too...busy attending and enjoying it.

However, 2009 had been a great year to me too.......let me jot down few highlights.

I gave birth to my baby Lana.....that one is a forever keep for me. My Leevan started talking...so sweet bah minbolotok.....went for holiday here and there locally. Moved to another rented house and the best was I got a house Villa in Mamut for my Christmas present from my hubby...xoxox Oh, I started excercising seriously but became so lazy in November and December 2009...haaahaa. too many makan2 bah..

Talking about resolution, not that many i've listed; knowing my condition...pregnant at that time, my situation won't allow me with an infact and toddler that needs their mummy so much...my goals are just to spend more time with them...be there for my babies. oh, I did excercise and lost some of those baby weight...lol.

I guess not much for my 2009 because my babies are still little. I'll wait them to be older so that I can bring them along for holidays later......once financially secured at that time....

Anyhow, still was a great year for me....and I hope 2010 will be a fabolous year ahead too ;p Kids are growing up fast and its going to be our 5th year wedding anniversary too...This year, I aim to lost all those baby weights and tone those mucles..heeeeehe, have more saving, hoping to move in our own house and have our 1st honeymoon at last.

till my next post.....love u all...